Look Ma! No plans!

Hi. I think I'm going to use this bit of space on blogger.com to pretty much clear my head on a regular basis. My friend Blaine turned me onto this site so I thought I'd give it a shot. I'm at a bit of a crossroads lately and the idea of changing several factors in my life is very appealing.

The above-mentioned crossroads are basically these: For the past fifteen years, I've been playing guitar in roughly a dozen various rock bands. These bands all received varying degrees of success. Some only played in basements. Some never got past the occasional gig or two. One was promising but I moved away. Another was promising but we took a six month break about two years ago. And two of them were very good. Recorded multiple records. Out of town shows. A fun tour last year that took us through ten states in eight days. I was living my dream, or rather, trying to. But my dream was never fully realized and never fully came true. The most recent band (and the best one if you want to know the truth) Crash/Burn/Repeat, broke up two months ago. I was as devastated as I would be if my wife left me or if I'd just found out that a loved one had died.

I decided that I wouldn't repeat the cycle and join another band. So instead I sold nearly all of my gear and decided that I would try fiction writing instead. It's been a huge challenge on so many levels. It's really caused me to look inside myself and reexamine my entire life. Made me reexamine my entire future. While it's all been as scary as all hell, it's likely been very necessary for me to get to the next page of my life. Hopefully one where no one is pulling rugs out from under me as well as a life where I'm not pulling the rugs out from under myself.

As I get more comfortable with this medium of communication, I'll be sharing more. Until then, I'm going to simply use this as my own selfish sounding board/soap box. Thanks and take care.

-80 Thurston